NATHAN HARRIS

My story starts a little differently than most when I was 7 years old and coming into the house from playing in the backyard and walking into my mother's room and seeing her passed out, covered in her own vomit, with a needle hanging out of her arm. I already knew what to do, there was a checklist already engrained in to my brain, this had already happened so many times before. I had to get her on her side so she didnt choke on her own bile or tongue, I needed to get her cleaned up so when she came too she wasnt panicked, and I had to calm her down as best I could with what little bit of knowledge that i had already acquired. I also had to make sure that she wouldnt thrash around and hurt herself when she did wake up. I never liked seeing my mother like this and it was an occurrence that happened far too often through most of my childhood. I always felt that I needed to do more to help the ones around me to be better because I never wanted to see them end up like my mom, I developed this innate ability at a very young age to sense when people were in need of help and that has carried through all of my life. I never felt like I was good enough or was able to do enough to help others until which led to many insecurities in my childhood and my young adult life. When I was 9 my mothers new fiance had asked me to follow him outside and told me that what he was about to do was because of me as he pulled out a .45 revolver , said he was doing this because of me, and put it beneath his chin and pulled the trigger. I didn't know what to think of that, I barely knew this man and he never said why he was going to do it other than it was my fault. This was my childhood so far. Fast forward 3 years and there I was standing in a courtroom waiting for my biological father to appear in court so he could dispute a 50 dollar a month increase in child support, He walked in and announced to the court that he wanted to sever all parental rights to me which effectively made me a bastard child. This shattered my world, my own father, my flesh and blood, wanting nothing to do with me. My insecurities spiraled out of control, I'm not even good enough for my own dad to love me I thought. I spent the next several months trying to figure out how to be a better son, a better person. My insecurities persisted with one overwhelming fact, I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH! One day not long after that my mother enrolled me in martials arts, I was immediately enthralled with this world not just of punching and kicking, but of the discipline, the camaraderie, the people who were around me who were coaches, mentors, and my sensei. This man changed my life's trajectory by being the mentor and coach that my life so desperately needed. He was my mentor but he was also a friend. over the next several years I became more confident and felt better about myself, I always wanted to know more about the discipline, I always strived to do more than what I had done the day before, whether it be helping my fellow students or helping teach classes. By all of this I felt like I was becoming a better version of me. I went on to attain my coveted black belt, which was a symbol of the hard work and dedication that I put in to be my absolute very best. I started to feel good about myself again. I became the role model and mentor that i didnt have growing up, my life had turned for the better and I wanted to help others get theirs to also. I became a student of life and had a hunger to learn everything I could to then pass on that knowledge to others who needed. 

These are some of the moments of my early story, I tell you these so you know a little about what shaped my childhood and you can see that i am raw in this. I want to be your guide and help you believe and understand that I have been there and I truly want to help you believe in yourself again. You can and should be the movie star and director of your own life, not just an extra in someone else's.

I can tell you without a shadow of a doubt that I can show you how to build self confidence, become the man that you aspire to be, and find your true purpose and calling, and along the way you will be in better shape mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. You can see by a few of the testimonials below that I am a man of honor and genuinely want to you to succeed.